To stay....or not to stay......that is the question....

My contract will be up in June......

I know that if I stay another year...that is another year of money I can send home...then come back to Canada in a much better position than I am in now....
Jobs may not be as easy to find in Canada right now.....

but

I miss my family...
I miss my friends....

so much is happening around me that I am wondering if being this are away is worth it.

One of my best friends is having a baby...
I miss my sister....
My grandfather and my aunt are going about their days without me....

I know in the grand scheme of things a year is not really a long time....

but tonight....it feels like FOREVER.

I miss you guys....more than you can possibly know.

xoxo

My puppy dilemma.....

I want a puppy.....I have wanted one for such a long time.

IS there ever a right time to get a puppy?

I will always be busy
I will always be working

Will I seriously wake up one day and say...yes ok..NOW is a perfect time for me to get a friendly companion.....

I dont know....I do know that I keep torturing myself by going into pet stores, holding these puppies and falling in love.

I don't think there is ever a right time...I know I will love it and take care of it.....

maybe the decision shouldnt be this hard....

I am seriously sitting here...staring at this blank screen scratching my head.
I want to write something....I want to connect with everyone who actually read this.....butI have no idea what to say.

I have been out of school since December 24th. Its been great. So much time to relax....yet....things seem to be a little high strung.
I taught and online program for the month of January which was fantastic and I am hoping that it turns into something I can bring back home to Canada with me.

Now....its February and I find I have so much time that I end up doing nothing....its sad really....I am a person who likes schedules....I like to be busy....I feel like if I am busy and always doing something then I am happy......

I dunno..I love this lifestyle but I am finding lately that I am searching for ways to come home again!

Part of me wants to come home in June....part of me wants to say....and the way that the dollar is right now I dont know if it makes sense for me to stay.....
so many decisions ....:)