Confusing Times.....

Things have been great this past week...its been hot...I don't seem to have a lot of energy but everything is good.
Saturday met with a friend for coffee and ended up spending the day drinking coffee, eating good food, sitting in the park and having great conversation. It has been a while since I have had a good conversation...

Our conversations came around to the subject of...." What would be your ideal job...and what do you want to do after this...what are your goals?"

I was silent.....I mean I have goals....I always have goals....but they always seem to be short term ones...but for the long term I have no idea what I am passionate about....When I think about the things that I know how to do...or things that I love....I am not like that person who lives and breathes music or art....I don't think I am naturally gifted at anything...and to be honest I think I know a little bit about a lot of things....but not enough for it to matter!

I mean....I will have my personal trainers certificate, I am licenced to sell mutual funds, I want to get a yoga certification, and finish my nutrition diploma...but am I really passionate about any of those things? Do I have the drive to pursue any of that? and the fact that I have to ask myself those questions....shouldn't that tell me something?

I am interested in religion, and faith, and why people believe. I am interested in Philosophy and morals and ethics, I want to be a yoga teacher, I want to be fit and healthy and a more peaceful person....so I guess that fits in with all of the courses I am taking....but in terms of a career?

UGG I hate that word...career.....do I even want one of those?...

My Goals for this year.
1. learn Korean - take the Korean beginner proficiency test in October
2. become stronger and more flexible
3. lose 10 lbs.... ( this goal is VERY short term as in 1-2 months from now)
3. Continue with my nutrition courses
4. write a few articles for the local foreigners magazine
5. Study a few different religions - start a study group
6. Continue with my yoga practice
7. Learn Taekwondo
8. Start a boot camp in Mokpo

OK so those are my short term goals.......my long term goals are not as clear.....

I think my end goal is to still open my own health food store...I want to be able to teach people about health and their bodies and how to live a healthier lifestyle....but I need to get myself on track before that's possible....

Oh I don't know.......I wish I did.....I really wish I knew what I wanted.....